IS TO STOP KILLING MYSELF OVER THOSE PEOPLE.
THEY ARE NOT WORTH IT.
I SCARED MYSELF NEARLY TO DEATH LAST NIGHT.
I've Enlisted The Help Of My Wonderful Little Family To Make Sure I Won't Drink For 30 Days Starting Today!
After that, I may want to do another Abs-30! Many people do in this program I'm loving, The 30-Day Sobriety Solution (link in right margin).
I'm also foregoing using any cannabis product as it sometimes triggers me to drink.
I'm also SERIOUSLY thinking I am going to have to let my two blogs go so I can be completely free from those people, my FOO (family of origin), who have access to my blogs.
I don't want them in our lives. I don't want them to know anything about my life, just as I don't know anything about theirs, and that's the way I like it.
I ORPHANED myself from them and my relatives for a reason!!!
I can't be truly free or whole until I am truly free of them.
It hurts me feeling like they are spying on me; and I know they are.
My beautiful young adult daughters have something wonderful planned for me today, and I CAN'T WAIT!
With The Intention Of Achieving Balance And Control Over Drinking And Being Fully Deprogrammed From CultAA--which I am learning to forgive, and let go of. Research teaches us that 1 out of 3 people are problem drinkers, but 90% of problem drinkers are Not Alcoholics and can change.
My Drinking History: Over four decades of mostly problem drinking, five drunken-related arrests in my 20s (the early 80s), of abstinence and binge-drinking, of trying moderation and usually-or-often failing, of being immersed in almost every other recovery group out there, but of being mostly sober.