But it's finally Over
And I'm done with my Stupid, Stupid, Abusive, Narcissistic FOO (family of origin) for good.
I'm an orphan for life.
All I Ever Wanted And Worked For My Whole Life With Them Was Truth, Communication, And Healing.
It's not in my Destiny though.
I only drank over it for two days in a row.
I was so deeply shattered, I thought for certain I would want to drink every day for quite a while.
I gave myself permission to do so, with love.
The first day I drank moderately, the second day I didn't. (Champagne was my drug of choice + weed)
Yesterday, something miraculously shifted in me and I had some inner peace and relief, and had no desire for substances, but DID desire Ben and Jerry's Karamel Sutra Core!
I believe seeing in my daughters' eyes the strength I forgot I had, all the love and support I received from my spiritual community of free-thinkers on Facebook, and a loan cousin, who showed up in my life on Facebook like a guardian angel --- greatly contributed to my healing. I have thanked them all profusely! ...Not to forget my girls' dad, who listened to and supported me long-distance while on a business trip!
