How many times do I gotta tell ya, you're not a normal person, you can't drink like one!*
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I'm very glad help is on the way.
I'll talk about that another time.
For now, this is me trying not to beat-up on myself for drinking a whole bottle of champagne yesterday, getting stoned on legal pot, then driving to 7-11 to buy a single-serving mini bottle of champagne! But I was so happy at the time, I wasn't even bothered by the cop car that appeared before me as if as an escort back to my house. In fact, I loved it. I felt like he was there approving my behavior. I feel he was sent by someone I love, by his higher self, to look out for me.... but this morning, of course, I don't have such a positive spin on the experience!
What if something had gone wrong? What if I had gotten arrested for drunk driving?!
That would be insane for someone who has such a minimal problem with alcohol, someone who is so Blessed that way. It just goes to show you how insidious and surprising this problem truly can be.
And I Didn't Even Drink The Whole Mini Bottle! I Only Drank Half!!! I DROVE under the influence for THAT??!!
Again, please don't let me hate on myself. LOVE is the answer. Like ALL souls, I Deserve More Love Not Less. Love is the Master Healer. I will love myself through this and I will love myself into changing.
Because, otherwise, my private party was a blast!
Sobriety is a blast for me too, and I will cultivate more of it.
*A normal person can and does drink a bottle of champagne or wine whenever they please.
