But, for some reason, during the past three months I have been forgetful about taking my second NatureThroid pill, which I take early afternoon, along with one every morning.
So, that strange err on my part, combined with drinking too much has put me into this situation.
This is good news though because it will force me to stop drinking so much. I care so much about my health. I'm so good at self-care, but I'd been overusing alcohol to self-medicate physical and emotional symptoms.
I drank yesterday, due to overwhelming depression and fatigue, a whole lot (like I was trying to keep up with the characters on the HBO series "Vinyl" or something!, which I was watching on my DVR off and on while watching the Super Tuesday election results ---- INTENSE night!) (Go Bernie! We Need You!)
I've been sooo extra fatigued lately as well as depressed, and now I know why. A very low thyroid on top of the fatigue and muscle weakness that are my constant companions from the ME/CFS---overwhelming. And just that almost constant feeling of feeling ill in general.
Alcohol and cannabis are the only things that give me relief and help me escape. There's no medical help for the ME/CFS. And I don't take meds.
I wish I could get into cannabis more because it's so healing. I just don't seem to like it unless I'm drinking?
I'm also dealing with being a tortured soul in this lifetime, but that's another story, and is in great part due to my FOO (family of origin), but not solely by any means.
Well, now I have the impetus not to cheat on my plan of drinking only once a week! I was OK about working my way up to it, expected slips. I drank just three times last week, and it was just this week that I made the new plan of just drinking once a week, on the weekends.
And knowing about my TSH will make the physical and emotional symptoms endurable without booze until I get my TSH levels back up and feel much, much better! My next lab work is early May.
And knowing just how my choices take quite a toll on my body, I ought to be able to deal with life without using alcohol as a crutch anymore! And I certainly won't be neglecting to take my second NatureThroid each day!
I'm making an appointment to talk to my psychologist. It's been many months since I've seen her. She's good at easing a tortured soul.
More Structured Water, please! : )
