(but gosh does Dairy Queen cannabis stink!)
I am uplifted by the power of Love
And despite Unbearable emotional pain at the hands of my misguided family of origin
And despite my heart trying to have a heart-attack on a daily basis
And despite my using alcohol and cannabis to Save my heart
And despite my wanting to Die from heartbreak
And despite my wanting to numb-out and escape to the highest degree
I Am Improving
I Am Lessening My Substance Use
And I Am Drinking More Structured Water
PROGRESS Happens!
Self Love Happens!
Self Care Happens!
LIFE Happens!
"Let life win." ~ Matt Kahn
With The Intention Of Achieving Balance And Control Over Drinking And Being Fully Deprogrammed From CultAA--which I am learning to forgive, and let go of. Research teaches us that 1 out of 3 people are problem drinkers, but 90% of problem drinkers are Not Alcoholics and can change.
My Drinking History: Over four decades of mostly problem drinking, five drunken-related arrests in my 20s (the early 80s), of abstinence and binge-drinking, of trying moderation and usually-or-often failing, of being immersed in almost every other recovery group out there, but of being mostly sober.