LOL, I'm Practically Having To Force Myself To Drink Today

This AMAZING "Succulent Wild Body Cleanse" by Marnie Northrup and SARK (her artwork here)

is so unique and joy-full----and the first week, which ends today---has been so kind in letting you have a lot of freedom to prepare for the cleanse----that starts tomorrow (I shopped today!)---- that, it's absolutely Interesting that I'm (guilt-free allowing myself to drink moderately today) practically forcing myself to drink at all! : )

THATs how Powerful and effective this cleanse is so far, and that's another example of how far I've come in my drinking habits/desires!

To think that I used to be such a problem drinker for all those decades, and labeled an alcoholic; why, it's just been such a transmutational change.... must be Fifth Deminsional or something!

Nonetheless, I'm now doing my best to enjoy a couple Omission gluten-free beers! And maybe even followed by a shot or two of the Rain vodka I have left! ....Oh, yes, I'm actually enjoying the effects of the first beer very much now! : )

For me, the cleanse will not only help me take a break from booze, but will also help me tweak my eating habits and teach me some more healthy ways to eat. I HOPE I'll lose some weight! I'll try to get a picture in here of the first week's menu later!

So far this year I've been drinking every-other day, and drinking mostly moderately (1-4).

Did You Miss Me? ;)

I'm doing well! How are you doing? : )

The Marnie Northrup/SARK cleanse (previous post) is AWESOME. I'm so lucky and blessed to be a part of it!

Nonetheless!, I'm not quite ready yet to forego alcohol! <heehee>

No worries, it's a gentle-approach-cleanse and for the first of the four weeks there is much freedom and personal choice regarding eats and drink.

SUNDAY the cleanse starts and that is when I will freely and willingly give up drinking alcohol and coffee! I'll also forego sugar other than the fruits and honey that will probably be on the plan.

It's not that I'm lucky I will not go through withdrawals of any kind, it's that I've worked my way here over the years. Know what I mean? : )

Have you tried Rain? Wow, it's delightful in my Structured Water. But I have to report that I'm not drinking heavily, and I've been doing abstinence days regularly. And on New Year's Eve I only drank 1 1/2 glasses of champagne! : )

May You Be Blessed : )

I'm Looking Forward To Doing This

...Even if it means no alcohol for 28 days, I'm so totally up for that because it's easy for me to not drink, y'all. :D

I've been wanting to do another cleanse but none resonated until this one, which starts 1/4!

www.planetSARK.com/swbc

I listened to the video yesterday and took notes:

12/29/15

SARK Body Revolution with Marnie Northrup. The Wild Succulent Body Cleanse!

7 Questions:

1) DECIDE. What I want my experience of my body to be.

Is my body where I want it to be right now?:  Not fully

How do I want to feel?:   I want to feel good in my clothes, and sexy. I want to feel more comfortable naked.  Make the decision daily.

 2) LISTEN TO YOUR INNER WISDOM AND BODY AND TAKE ACTION FROM THERE.

3) ALLOW MY EMOTIONS TO BE MY GUIDE. 

Self care is tending to our emotions as they come up, little by little. E-Motions = energy.

4) TRANSFORM MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY INNER CRITIC. She's always present wanting me to be perfect.

Don't need to put my life on hold till I have the perfect body. It creates our physiology.

5) CREATE BEAUTIFUL BOUNDARIES. It's OK to take up space!

Our bodies will do it for us if we don't (take up space). I deserve to feel that space with love. The appropriate uses of the words No and Yes can make more room for love.

6) RELEASE WHAT CAN FEEL LIKE A WAR WITH OUR BODY AND LIVE IN A JOYFUL SOLUTION. Be in a loving, juicy, wild relationship with our bodies, and nurture it.

7) CELEBRATE THE PERFECTION OF MY BODY AND ALL THE BODIES AROUND ME.

:D

And celebrate my progress too!

SARKs Love Notes:

Dearest sweet darling adorable Susan....

Dear beautiful, talented, creative, wise, succulent, happy woman, Judy,

I see the grand strides you are making to heal your life and your body and to become the happy, evolved person you truly are, and I am so proud of you! I love you more than words can say. I love how you roll with the punches. I love how you bounce back quickly from your imperfections and mistakes and flood yourself with love and I love yous to your beautiful heart when you falter. I love how you never give up on yourself, your life, and your healing.

More later!!

xo, Judy

(It's me, Jaya!) :D

My daughter's bff's hat and 1D record player : )

OMG! 'Tis The Perfect Day For Drinking!

Who Knew?! :D

Who Knew the day after Christmas is the Perfect day for solitude, reflection, and drinking?! :D

As a newly-formed moderate drinker, I certainly didn't know what a treasure was awaiting me on this calendar day! :D

I'm blissed-out up in here! :D

(I'm so fucking Blessed!!) :D

All Is Right With The World! :D

Peace
Quiet
Solitude
Beer
Tequila
Moderation
My laptop
My little family happy in their own solitudes

:D

Day After Christmas Heaven

'Twas Indeed A Moderate-Drinking Christmas! : )

I had 3 drinks on Christmas Eve, and 1 drink on Christmas!

Here's some pics of our holiday:

Best Christmas Ever!

A Very Merry Moderate Christmas To All! :D

 

I Trust That This Is Lasting Moderation :D

Just a note for those new to my blog. :)

I KNOW my being a moderate drinker is here to stay, for several reasons! :D (But, yes, time will tell!)

Some of the reasons in random order:

• My little family sees it and trusts the change!
• I FEEL that things have shifted in my mind and body
• I no longer crave alcohol; I'm simply an "alcohol enthusiast" like MSNBCs Rachel Maddow and thousands of others!
• I no longer desire to drink more than my personally designed drinking plan         (0-3-or-4 standard drinks, seldomly 5-6---when it's appropriate to party hearty!)
• I frequently drink only 0, or 1, or 2 standard drinks when I drink
• There Is Absolutely NO "White-Knuckling" Goin' On
• I Magically, Miraculously switched to drinking moderately one month ago on the heels of several months of drinking heavily*

....*That last one has NEVER happened before. For decades the only time I could moderate my drinking was after being alcohol-free for a long time; and then, it would never last; I'd always get right back to problem drinking within a couple of weeks.


PLEASE email me your experiences if you are a moderate drinker who conquered a drinking problem (anonymously if you want), and I'll include your story in the book I'm going to write. :D

jaya.rainbow.angel@gmail.com

By The Time I Write A Book About This, I'll Truly Know Fer Sure If Moderation Is Holding For Me!

Last night I drank half a beer. Geeez, what an alchi!  ...NOT! :D

I really want to turn this blog into a book.
Moderation success stories..... truly Major transformation stories are exciting, and needed in the world!
Helping to integrate the very flawed "Recovery Movement Mentality" into the earth's new 5th dimensional way of being is needed too!
Things DO get better and become integrated. In other words, it's not loving to destroy the ego, and besides, it doesn't serve anything or anyone. It's loving to allow discordant energy to be transmuted and integrated into a higher vibration.

I hope to hear from others, but so far, no bites.

Are there not enough moderation success stories yet?
Are people just shy? Even if they remain anonymous?

Perhaps a book like mine would be very ground-breaking then!

I can't wait to get started!

My working title is "F U CAA! (F@%k You CultAA!)"

LOL!, I love it! Dunno if I'd be able to get away with it or not!

I don't apologize for being Very Opinionated about AA; they caused me So Much Harm, and they ARE responsible for hundreds of suicides (if not more).  Research the links in the right margin.
Even during my own decades in and out of the cult, I heard of many friends ending their lives. They felt like hopeless losers and failures because they 'couldn't grasp this simple program!'

But, believe me, my book is NOT going to be an AA-bashing session, I'm only going to make references to AA, and will try to be kind and non-judgmental. My book will be mostly POSITIVE and HAPPY about STRENGTH and TRANSFORMATION, and thoughts about believing in oneself and the Power in that. .....Mostly, it's going to simply be the story of my personal experiences in my very long journey with alcohol, which proved to be the greatest challenge of my life!

The Happy Ending to the book is TRUE.  And it's SO amazing and miraculous. Who woulda thunk it!

jaya.rainbow.angel@gmail.com

I Had Such Fun Last Night! :D ---- And A Request

Wow, this drinking life just gets better and better!

Not only do I get to enjoy moderating regularly: 0-3 or 4 standard drinks, but I get to over-indulge once in a while, with No Problem! :D

(Again, take THAT CultAA!) ;)

I did not expect that! I mean, I did expect to not be perfect and to have 5 or 6 drinks at times, but I didn't expect it to be consequence-free for me. In other words, sometimes it's simply time to party hearty! I didn't have any consequences in the night, and no hangover today. That might be because the drinking/smoking cannabis experience was such a happy one, and also because of the two 5mg Valiums I took at bedtime. That stuff is a great aid in times like this. (I have always used Valium very lightly and a 30-pill Rx will last me two years sometimes, and will always last no less than 3 months, but usually it's quite a bit longer. I don't just take it when I've had too much to drink, you see, I sometimes take one to help me fall asleep when I'm having trouble doing so.) .....Not to mention that the last 2 drinks of 6 were silver tequila, not beer like the first 4 (silver tequila being easier on my system). ....I started drinking early yesterday; 3 pm! That's because I had presents to wrap and it helps ease the pain in my hips and lower back when sitting cross-legged on the floor. The times I had only 1 drink this month were the times I was wrapping presents!)

All this POSITIVITY does for me is motivate and inspire me to moderate even more, even better.

I see myself drinking less and less as the months go on.

Last night, watching John Lennon's 75th Birthday Special with all those FANTABULOUS artists performing Lennon's AMAZING songs-----it was like I was 22 again! Partying gives me the energy and body-painlessness to dance my ass off ! I was 23 when he transitioned to the other side; he is still so very much alive and part of us, and last night proved it! I loved seeing Yoko and hearing her few and so perfectly appropriate words last night. What a deep bond those two still have: TRUE Twin Souls!!

I also performed an act of good citizenship in my neighborhood last night, but that's another story!

I've absolutely GOTTA write a book based on this blog.

IF YOU ARE A FELLOW SUCCESSFUL MODERATOR WITH A STORY OF RECOVERY, PLEASE EMAIL ME! I'D LOVE TO INCLUDE YOUR STORIES AND EXPERIENCES IN MY BOOK! ANONYMITY IS FINE!

jaya.rainbow.angel@gmail.com

P.S.

I'm watching "Imagine:John Lennon 75th Birthday" on AMC  !

And just earlier this evening I gave the magazine to my surrogate son, my youngest daughter's bff, for his Christmas present !