Not much has changed since my last post, and I drank < 6 beers again yesterday.
But the day before that I abstained.
It feels like my life is falling apart.
Let's hope that means I'm Waking Up out of some kind of dream.
It's so hard losing people you love, especially so many all at once.
I'm abstaining again today.
With The Intention Of Achieving Balance And Control Over Drinking And Being Fully Deprogrammed From CultAA--which I am learning to forgive, and let go of. Research teaches us that 1 out of 3 people are problem drinkers, but 90% of problem drinkers are Not Alcoholics and can change.
My Drinking History: Over four decades of mostly problem drinking, five drunken-related arrests in my 20s (the early 80s), of abstinence and binge-drinking, of trying moderation and usually-or-often failing, of being immersed in almost every other recovery group out there, but of being mostly sober.