A 0 day for me. First one since my birthday last Sunday.
Today is Saturday. It feels really good.
It seems to me that my problems are so small and so easy
to fix. So why do I make it so difficult? Cuz I'm just trying to have fun? Yes,
cuz I'm just trying to have fun.
If it's this easy to drink 0, and if my only problem is a
mere 1-3 drinks (over my mods limit), I must stop being so hard on myself, and I must start seeing that I really don't
have a problem. I really simply have choices.
And I'm So Lucky that drinking just 1-3 drinks beyond my
mods limit of 4 makes me suffer so much physically, mentally, emotionally and
spiritually in the night and the next day. I'm lucky because if it didn't do
that imagine how much I would drink regularly?!
Not that 1-3 drinks isn't a lot. Alcohol being what it is
and all.
There are a lot of reasons I over drink when I do. Good
and bad issues.
But, truly, tonight I am once again recognizing and
remembering how lucky I really am.
I'm starting to believe that I Really Can be a consistent
moderate drinker, and that I certainly don't have to abstain from drinking
alcohol for 30 days to get there.
This new program I'm on Day 7 in, The 30 Day Sobriety
Solution (link in right margin) says something I'm going to prove wrong, because I already have proven
it wrong already last year when I switched rather effortlessly from pretty
regular over-drinking to mostly moderate drinking:
I posted on the forum about this today, but didn't hear anything back:
2/6/16 Day 7
I could use some support from ADMIN for my particular
needs.
Jack and Dave write in the book: "This 30 days of abstinence is
imperative for your success."
It's IMPERATIVE?
If that's true for EVERYONE?, then I'm doomed for
failure.
I'm going to have to dig deep within myself and believe
in myself to succeed without doing an Abs-30 even if no one else believes in me. I
know it's also written in the book that it doesn't matter if no one else
believes in you, it only matters that you believe in yourself. But it hurts me to
read that it's imperative for my success as a consistent moderate drinker to do
something I am simply unable to do for Very Real Reasons.
Respectfully, Jaya
This from the book is more like it!:
