With the help of my bff, Jordan, my separated husband, I was reminded that I do have control over alcohol, despite how strong my cravings are.
With his coaching over the phone, I decided not to demonize myself for wanting to drink, first of all.
Then, I decided to employ a tactic suggested to me by my LPP coach, Shelly (link to the right), and eat some food as a method to drink moderately.
It's so brilliant I don't know why I didn't think of it myself!
I simply never eat when I'm drinking, that's why. I drink in lieu of eating, and eat only when I've had my fill of booze.
So, I just ate some organic chicken and non-GMO gluten-free pizza. Jordan will bring me a 1/2 pint of tequila when he comes over in a bit; employing another technique: delaying drinking.
I already feel better, much, much better, and happy, and proud, and excited to try this.
OK, back to watching the new season of Project Runway on my DVR...
Hopefully!:
With The Intention Of Achieving Balance And Control Over Drinking And Being Fully Deprogrammed From CultAA--which I am learning to forgive, and let go of. Research teaches us that 1 out of 3 people are problem drinkers, but 90% of problem drinkers are Not Alcoholics and can change.
My Drinking History: Over four decades of mostly problem drinking, five drunken-related arrests in my 20s (the early 80s), of abstinence and binge-drinking, of trying moderation and usually-or-often failing, of being immersed in almost every other recovery group out there, but of being mostly sober.